sept 4th

Today S-U-C-K-E-D!!! This has to be one of the worst performances of my life. We ran the University of Houston Johnny Morris intvitational today, which was on a intermural soccerfield that had long grass and too many sharp turns. The times were slow but there were still some good performances in this 3mile race.
I ran 16:15, almost a minute slower than the time trial last week. I got out there and ran with Blake and Patrick, our plan was to run 5:10 the first mile and work our way down. It did not happen though as we went through in like 5:16 at a mile. Once I saw this, I knew I was in trouble because it was really difficult to run that 5:16. After that it just went down hill and hit rock bottom when Julius and Clint passed me in the last 400m. I finished 5th on our team and 18th overall out of 34 people in the race.
Flat out horrible.
Sevral things fustrated me with this race. First, I ran 15:09 and placed 3rd on this course last year and the course was unchanged.Secondly, about an hour after I cooled down, I was not sore or even fatigued. I hate not being tired after a race because I can't help but think I had more left. I was hurting so bad during the race though so it just doesn't make sense for this senario to occur. Finally, it really got to me to see guys I beat all the time in high school and previous years getting in the top ten in the race and running way better times than me. I know I should not care about what they did and just focus on myelf, but common I do this to beat these guys, I do this to be the best. That is my standard.
When I met with my coach Jesse Parker at the hotel during confrence track last spring, we discussed what I needed to do to be the "home run hitter" runner or more importantly the LEADER of our team, I took it to heart because he saw this type of potential in me. It also opened my eyes to how "off "my lifestyle and training habbits were from where they needed to be to be this leader or runner. He explained to me all of the things I needed to do and this summer I did them and then some. Now I open up cross country with this joke of a perforamance and it just fustrates me to no end. Thank goodness we have another meet at A&M next week, it'll give me something to take my mind off of this along with all the other runs I have this week.